currently, i’m somewhat doubting my mental capabilities. i’m a sucker when it comes to making spontaneous decisions, most of the time. the verdict would always be unfavourable, making life seemingly difficult. it’s frustrating to find yourself caught up in an ugly mess upon responding to spontaneous wayward judgements.

it could be a result of being overwhelmingly desperate for distinctive achievements of some sort. it could also be to prove that i was previously unjustly graded. whatever it is…

i wish things were different…

what the hell was i thinking?!

it just proves that life is not all perfect.

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anyways, i found an archive of a friend’s old blog posts.

and it was hellishly brilliant!

damn!

his POVs are way beyond my descriptive abilities…

rats!

haha…

i realised how much he has evolved and how important canada played a part in facilitating the process. he wouldn’t be who he is now if it wasn’t for the fact that he had to fly there even before he finished high school.

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well, my foolishness caused me a much today. and i wish that history won’t keep repeating itself.

i hate myself sometimes…

period.